Everything is Holy Now.

98 Ordinary




Linda Irene



Ihidaya is the Syriac-Aramaic word that describes souls that enter into mystical oneness. It's direct translation has commonly been, "single one," or "singleness," or "unified one." Over the centuries, it's been translated to mean Jesus was unmarried. More recently, many scholars believe it has another meaning.

It's thought that Ihidaya's meaning in 'single one' infers being one with God, not marital status. This makes much more sense to my way of thinking, although I'm in no way implying Jesus was married. Simply that whether he was single or married may not be at all relevant. This may be bad news for the many Catholic priests who never experienced the joy of family, or intimate love, but it does take the conversation about rules and regulations in regards to religion to another level.

Jesus made it clear that our path is to seek oneness with God. In other words, to live out of our soul, not our false self, a term Paul coined in ____. The false self is commonly described as our ego self, the inner aspect of ourselves that observes what the soul is doing. The ego's manifests as active, scheming, selfish, strategic, self centered, manipulative, driven, competitive, etc. It's the part of us that is not joined with God.

It's easy to judge the ego and soul as good or bad. This is not it. It's not the positive or negative aspect in us, but the part that's in oneness and the one that's not. It is the whole self, and the one still operating in duality. The ego is not always the "bad" part of us, it is simply our dualistic nature that operates more out of our agenda, than of God.

On the other hand, the soul or the true self, is always fully present. It cannot exist unless in full union, it is the part of us that is of God. It is the inner channel that takes us to our personal connection to God, to oneness, to wholeness. It leads to where we and God meet, the inner sanctuary, so to speak. It is always present, always living in love, not attached to feelings that reflect the need to be happy or better or miserable. It does not need in the human sense. It simply is.

Ihidaya, in this way of understanding it, is reached when we have successfully released the need to be identified by the false self, to be identified at all, other than experiencing the pure awareness of the oneness - the singleness.

This is the place of peace, and unification that embodies trust. Hope isn't here either - because hope judges. It wants something to be other than it is...even if it's in a positive light. The experience of deep knowing replaces hope.

Union with God replaces hope with whole trust and knowing. Isness.

In the same line of thought, the imagery of God as Father has, over time, fed the idea that God is an object. God is something or someone, a living being of some kind. Most have come to understand God as love and spirit, and God is the source of pure love. This, in turn, sometimes creates imagery that God is something or someone who loves us, and human instinct follows by thinking we need to love God in the way we understand love. But that's probably not Jesus' meaning when he said Love God as one of his two most important commandments.

God is vibrantly and dynamically alive, flowing through all we do and all we are. There's no exception to this flow of love, whether good or bad, according to our human judgement. Jesus' message is to become a living spirit, in the way that he referred to Mary Magdalene. This is a person who has moved beyond the duality of human thought and experience, and doesn't judge the good or bad as opposed to one another. They are part of the same whole.

When we are present in our life in this love, we are following Jesus. This is not the feeling love of romance and relationships, but rather, the knowing love of Ihidaya. The love of God, of oneness, of unity with God.

As soon as we define or judge what love looks like, we are developing a system of rules that limit and deaden the kind of love that flows freely from God. This is another reason, I believe, church culture has entropied over recent decades. It built itself up vertically to the point it had nowhere to go but out or down. It had lost connection with people in the current culture, which is what existed "out" from it. This left no option but down. Entropy. Deconcentration of structure if thinking about entropy in relation to the laws of thermodynamics.

A friend of mine once said you can tell the entropy of an organization by the weight of its manual. When bureacracies and institutions continue to grow, insulate, and create rule after rule to define itself, it exists by control. When all creativity has been abandoned, and only control remains, entropy is sure to begin.

It will fall. It has to.

This is how it is when we connect to the object of God too. As an object, we begin projecting our values and interpretations to it. It doesn't take long before we are idolizing our own thoughts and beliefs, instead of the holy mystery that has no definition or imagery. When we worship what we think God is, and build institutions around it to defend these beliefs, we are headed for an eventual fall because we've built idols.

God as an object feeds the egoic separation that divides and judges. But God as love doesn't require us to feign affection on it, but rather, exists to be received and be one with it.

It is a flow. I imagine it to be like the interconnected and ongoing organic flow of the Trinity, rather than the choppy reciprocity that volleys back and forth in human relationships.

This way of relationship with God sounds so different from how many churches execute worship services today. Yet, if we consider it more, we see it's simply a shared expression of love for God. It's the expression of an intention made alive in community. Because of God's nature as flow, it's not rejected or judged as good or bad. It's how people are working out their spiritual life in those places. That's all.

It's easy to imagine God understands humanity's inherent need to express love because it's how they open up the space to experience it as reciprocal. If we live out of our dual nature, the need to express love in GOd's direction is natural because it wants it in return. The dual mind knows no other way.

It doesn't understand this love is the absolute essence of God, and it just is. It responds out of this split volleying relationship. It requires a give and take relationship to sustain its duality.

However, when this duality is surrendered, Ihidaya is experienced - the single oneness and unity of being in God, in and of this love, is realized.

Makes sense to me.

It even helps parables make sense.

Don't you love when new information makes your mind bend?

I love that.

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