I don't know Who - or what - put the question, I don't know when it was put. I don't even remember answering. But at some moment I did answer Yes to Someone - or Something - and from that hour I was certain that existence is meaningful and that, therefore, my life, in self-surrender, had a goal.
-Dag Hammarskjold, Markings
I know this is my reality, and I want to believe it's true of so many people out there. Those of us who have said yes to something, someone, even when this something has not been defined, or when the definitions we have don't make sense, yet we know something is being said yes to. We are not alone in this yes. And it is in our self-surrender to this thing, this something, this someone that is so much bigger than my imaginings, yet it is completely unknown. This is my journey. Does it mean I don't have faith?
It does not mean that.
It means I do.
It also means I live in the discoveries and lessons that come with it. It means I love with every ounce of my being and revel in the glory that comes from life, and rest in the peace that knows how little it knows. It being unknown means I learn and love and cry and grieve and believe and trust and dive deep into the heart of everything we call life with every ounce of faith and love this something that joins me in this dance also gives. I believe with every ounce of my being that the polarity of life holds both death and resurrection without my needing to convince myself or anyone else. I know this because I know I will rise and I will wither away in death a million times over. And when you ask me what I know, I will respond by inviting you into the journey of what is lovely and alive and true and full of all that I don't know, because it's here I find this thing I know.
Yes! I say yes in self-surrender to this, to the holy, sacred, reverent truth of what is and - what is unknown.